What do you do when you know you’re not in love with someone anymore, but that person is still closer to you than anyone else in the world? Cry, that’s what I’ve been doing. It took all of 30 seconds for the heaving tears to start once I got in my car and left for Tallahassee yesterday. I probably shouldn’t have been driving. I know I can’t stay with him but then what do I have? I’m not really close to my family, I have few close friends and I’m graduating soon. Everything is going to change and he’s probably not going to be around to see it. 

He’s so reliable and makes me feel safe, but I don’t want to just feel comfortable and then guilty half the time because I know he loves me more than I love him. But I don’t want to be without him either. We’ve never been just friends though, and I probably can’t have it both ways…

How am I going to do this? I was going to wait a week but it’s going to eat me up inside if I do. I’m so good at concealing my emotions, does he have any clue? If I feel this horrible about it, what is it going to do to him?